Let the Anxiety Olympics begin!

...My next CT scan has been scheduled for October 10th. I probably won't post about it until the weekend though, so don't ask. xo

First up: Tightrope Walking Across the Uneven Bars
Don't worry, Nadia. There's a mat for when you fall.

(Can you believe there aren't any "anxiety olympics" images? Quick, someone make me a sketch.)

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  1. DanielOctober 1, 2014 at 3:35 PM

    if i could i'd sketch every single one of my dreams. mostly the ones waiting tables, naked. we're here with you, jessica, not waiting tables and not naked. you're welcome.

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